People in Our Path: Online Dating

When I first realized that I would be out on the ‘dating scene,’ going through a divorce at sixty-five years old, I had no idea that would occur during a pandemic. When I thought about dating, I remembered back to when I last went out at twenty-two, before I was engaged to my future husband.

Dating at that time, in the 1970s, was all about being in-person. The guys were usually classmates or friends with one of my girlfriends or cousins. In high school, he may have been someone I saw regularly in my community– maybe working at a store, or attending the same church or youth group. During college, he could have lived in the same apartment complex or ridden a Chapel Hill City bus to campus. I knew what he looked like, what he sounded like, and I could guess about his values from who he hung out with; or so I thought. I was sure of his height, the way he dressed, his age, and the activities he engaged in. I knew the car he drove–whether it was a family hand-me-down or a sporty one he’d worked hard to buy.

But now, dating in 2021, things are different.

With the pandemic, sheltering in place has cut out the ways I’ve primarily met people in the community– through my dances. Church has been virtual and all other groups have moved to either not meeting or virtual formats. If I wanted to move forward with finding a new relationship, my only choice seemed to be on-line dating. I’ve had family and friends to meet their spouses that way so I don’t see that as unusual; it’s just untested by me.

When I told one of my friends, who is the same age as me, that I was going to set up an on-line dating account, I could see the disappointment on her face.

“Well, I hope you’ll find someone the regular way.”

We’d shared our dating stories as teens when we were going out with guys we’d met in the community, through friends or family, at school or church.

“I’d like that, too. But I just can’t wait for that to happen,” I defended. None of us knew when things would return to pre-COVID normal and the ability to meet people like we used to. Besides, I thought. I’m not good at waiting; I’ve never been good at waiting.

I would give on-line dating a try; at least I would feel I was moving forward during the pandemic– making small steps toward finding a new love in my life.

I developed a profile– that description of myself that included my personality, values, activities I enjoyed, and what I was looking for in a relationship. Then I uploaded pictures– a headshot as the primary, and others that showed me with my sons, my grandsons, dancing, hiking, and a couple from my solo journeys to show my adventurous side. When I felt the profile and pics were an accurate reflection of me, I hit SAVE and stepped into the Brave New World of on-line dating.

It took a while to get used to the first site I chose– OurTime which was one of the top five for Seniors. There’s a learning curve with anything technical, and I had to experiment with how you check to see if someone Liked your profile or pic or had sent a message. I soon learned that if you checked Like and didn’t put in a message, that site would do it for you. I was aghast when I saw the message I’d supposedly sent. “I really like your profile. Feel free to send me a message.”

“I didn’t say that,” I fumed. What I thought I’d done was simply liked a picture and didn’t want to go as far as saying “send me a message.” To my ears, that sounded ‘forward’ as we’d have called it back when I was young. As a girl, I was raised that the guy was the one to initiate a phone call or asking you out. It felt too direct to be that specific, up front about wanting the guy to respond to me.

But that wasn’t how it was in these ‘new days’ as my younger son used to refer to his time period, reminding me when he was in sixth grade, “Mama, these are the new days.” I would have to get over my shyness, my reserve that came from those early years of restraint–watching older kids dating when I was a girl in the sixties, and experiencing dating as a teen in the seventies.

In searching for a picture of online dating for seniors I liked this one because it made me laugh. Online dating is for all ages in all parts of the world; love is not bound by age.

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Eventually, I learned how to use the OurTime platform. I’d heard so many people who’d done on-line dating say that it was a numbers game: the more people you meet, the more your chances increase of finding someone. I thought about it like what I’d heard about Dean Smith, the beloved coach of the UNC basketball team for many years. As I remember, players had to shoot at least a 100 free throws after each practice. The whole idea was the more shots you put up, the higher number of baskets you’d make–which would later translate into clutch shots at the free throw line in those notoriously tight games.

Likewise, the more profiles you responded to with online dating sites, the more likely that you’d land that love of your life. Eventually, with this numbers game in mind, I joined other sites– comfortable with the similarities in how they worked. It was hard to account for all the time and effort it took to maintain a presence on each site: checking several times a day who’d viewed you, messages you may want to respond to, reviewing new matches and checking yes or pass– sometimes called swiping left or right. When I described the process to one of my friends, she said it sounded like too much work, that she’d just wait to meet someone the way we used to; she was holding out for the regular way.

There were times it felt very frustrating and like too much work.

One day, I was fussing at God about it, saying I didn’t think it was fair that I had to go through divorce; it wasn’t what I’d counted on, especially not at this point in life. I ranted about all the time it took, the up-and-down roller coaster of emotions given whether I got Likes or didn’t, whether the ones I was interested in messaged me back. After I actually went for coffee meetups and a couple of hikes, I complained that it felt like a waste of time. I spent so much energy anticipating then going on those dates and then when I met the guy– he barely resembled his picture. I’d come to another low point in the process of moving forward.

But, like usual, after all my fussing and fuming, finally exhausted from my irritation then anger, God’s presence settled me down. I was able to hear that ‘still small voice’ that is tucked away inside, waiting for me to be quiet.

“Just approach this as your new Solo Journey. See these guys as the ‘people in your path.’ “

On the Solo Journeys I’ve taken over the years, I start each day with the prayer, “God, bless me and the people in my path–for their good and mine.” I go forward that day watching who’ll show up, seeing them as destined to be part of that journey, knowing we will have an impact on one another. Some of them are helpful– giving me directions or suggesting local haunts I should visit; some of them share their stories and gives me a new perspective; some of them show acceptance of me in ways I haven’t accepted myself; some of them show me new ways of being that I hadn’t considered.

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Now, these guys who show up in my on-line dating path will do the same for me–and me for them. They are the people in my path.

That message from God has helped me to reframe this new venture of dating in the new days. I still have times of getting frustrated, my hopes going up and down, and at times, feeling invigorated. And like the basketball players, I have to keep putting up the shots so that one day, it will all pay off.

I know that most of you are not dealing with this on-line dating situation, but I have to wonder if you might be traveling, or needing to travel, a new path. Is there a new journey you’re being called to that you’re resisting– because it’s not your regular way of doing things? Is there a way to settle down, and hear that still small voice inside that is calling you to a different way of seeing things?

My hope is that we all can be present to whatever challenge is pulling us and that we’ll listen for God’s direction for how to navigate through what we hadn’t anticipated, what is the task at hand to take our life to where it’s to be.

Blessings on you as you find your way down your path.

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18 thoughts on “People in Our Path: Online Dating

  1. I was a few years younger when I got divorced and entered the online dating scene. It was daunting and I also found myself cringing at some of the automatic messages and ways of connecting. I met quite a few frogs during that time. It took me a little while to develop my criteria for who I wanted to connect with. I learned to keep my options open and keep it very light rather than attempting to evaluate each person I connected with as a potential husband. When I “winked” at Elliot and met him for the first time, I had no idea what would come. Nearly 15 years, two boys, an MBC diagnosis and a lot of miles, I’m glad I put myself “out there.” Love and hugs to you!!❤️

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    • Hey Abigail,
      Thanks so much for reading and for sharing your story. I will heed your advice, “keep my options open and keep it very light rather than attempting to evaluate each person I connected with as a potential husband.” That’s what I need to follow right now!
      Yes, I’m working through the frogs–but trying to value each frog for what he teaches me. LOL!
      I’m glad you met Elliot and it gives me hope that one day I’ll meet my prince, too!
      Best to you, Abigail and to your family, that you created with that man you winked at!
      Connie

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  2. Great Post Connie, These are trying times and we are forced to make decisions, The problem is that there may only be two choices. In thinking about the comment of your friend, “Well, I hope you’ll find someone the regular way.”, I knew that you were a mature thinker. You are a treasure that must be protected and you are. Believe that your timing may not be in line with the Stars. Choose your options with depth of thought. Love and Blessing to you this week.
    John.

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    • Hey John,
      Thanks for reading and for sharing your point of view.
      Yes– I don’t know that the stars have aligned yet–but I believe they will in time. I just have to put one foot in front of the other, in faith, believing that it will be.
      Best to you,
      Connie

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  3. So interesting. Good that you compare it to a type of solo journey. That should put a good perspective on this adventure. Prayers for you to find some very special guys.

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  4. Yup me too – looks like Abigail and I had roughly the same timing. Craig and I have been together 14 years on the 14th. Pi day of course for my genius polymath; I wanted smart
    & funny and had a career. I’d had it with the younger guys who seemed to want a mommy or guys who wanted a woman with a good job in Silicon Valley after I was divorced and my fiancée at the time decided I wasn’t “rich enough” and I refused to have a boob job which in hindsight… but I digress. Craigs not shallow he loves me and we were both about to remove our profiles when we came on one another’s radar almost as if some algorithm gave way to when we’d be fed up with the non-matches the sites were throwing at us. Hang in have fun and don’t make the pity date mistake – you’ll see what I mean! 🤗

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    • Hey Ilene,
      Your history of on-line dating is fascinating. I’m glad you found Craig and he found you.
      I’m curious about the pity date–guess I’ll have to wait and see what you mean.
      Best to you for many more happy years with the man you found.
      Connie

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  5. Hi Connie! I also did some online ‘searching’ year ago. I met my significant other through a dating website, and we’ve now been together for 11 years. Maybe see it as an adventure? All these new people you are meeting and their different personalities and perspectives. I still marvel at people who think that they must dupe others by using old and inaccurate pictures. It reflects badly on them, because obviously the truth will come out and what’s with the ego? But anyway, I guess it takes all sorts. Good luck with that, it can work out, just be careful out there. Best wishes, Zelmaré

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    • Hey Zelmare,
      Thanks for reading and for sharing your story– which brings me hope on this morning when I was feeling kind of down about it all.
      Yes, it is an adventure that I didn’t plan! Nice to know that you found your significant other and have enjoyed being together for 11 years. Yeah, the selfies people take are about as bad as the old pictures. When I complained to my 34 year old son about the sit-up-in-bed either shirtless or with a ratty tee shirt profile pics, he said, “Mama, you know guys are lazy.” Guess that explains it!
      Best to you for many more years with your online dating catch, Zelmare!
      Connie

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  6. Once again – thank you for writing so openly about something that for some of us is hard to talk about in such an honest and open way. I too have stepped into the sometimes murky waters of online dating since my marriage break up- it’s been quite the experience! I’ve had some really unpleasant experiences, but equally some lovely ones too. I love your attitude and your blessing and it’s one I am going to adopt going forward.

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    • Hey Marie,
      Thanks for reading and for sharing your experience. Online dating is not what we had in mind, but it’s what we have. I wish you the best with the ‘men in your path’ and hope that one day you’ll find the love of your life.
      Blessings on you,
      Connie

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  8. I see a lot of similarities between us Connie, even though I’m about 40 years your junior, I too don’t like waiting! During the pandemic I’ve been trying to online date but it is hard! It is a struggle of not wanting to be too forward, but wanting to make sure my intentions are clear.

    I hope you find someone. Rooting for you!

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    • Hey Andria,
      Thanks so much for reading and sharing your perspective. I think we can have a lot in common even when are ages are quite different. It seems that online dating is hard for every age group! Especially during this year of a pandemic it’s been filled with frustration. I like how you say that it’s a “struggle of not wanting to be too forward, but wanting to make sure my intentions are clear.” that is so well put. I struggle with that too– trying to speak up, be proactive in finding what I desire– but like you, not wanting to appear too forward or eager.
      Such strange dating times!
      I hope you find someone, too! I’m rooting for you as well and all of us trying to navigate dating– no matter our ages!
      Connie

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