I’ve thought a lot about a father’s care over the past six weeks as I’ve watched my son, Brooks become a father. You can see the joy, the weight, the responsibility, the wonder of his new role as he tenderly cares for his baby boy. From the time Brooks knew they were going to be parents, I listened to how he considered decisions in light of what would be best for his family, what a child would need– a father’s protection and provision coming forth from within.
My son learned about being a father from his Dad, my husband, David always a rock of support for his sons. David didn’t run away from infant care, or terrible twos, or late-night fevers, or problems with getting the boys to complete their homework. He worked hard to provide for all of us so that we could have a good life. And David had seen that same behavior in his father– hard working to support his wife and three sons.
Likewise, I saw how my Daddy cared for Mama and we three daughters. He worked long hours on our farm and in other jobs to provide for us. He was the best to bring special treats like ice cream when we were sick and to complement us in our Easter outfits, when we played the piano, or baked him his favorite cake. I was devastated when we lost him to a heart attack when he was just 57. I was 22 and suddenly without the care of my father.
David and I married just eight months after my father died. I was grateful to David’s father, ‘DB’ for welcoming me as a daughter– one he’d never had. For the next 22 years, we were close and I depended on his fatherly support. I really missed that when 3 months after he died, I was diagnosed with breast cancer and could have benefitted from his concern, knowing I had a father watching out for me. I certainly trusted in God my Father during that time, but it would have been nice to have that from an earthly father. I missed the practical way DB had of showing his love, his signature parting instruction to his sons to “check your oil,” the way he said I’m thinking about your safety on the road, without saying it directly. A father’s care that’s a tangible love with an extra twenty dollars pressed into your hand or groceries loaded into the back of your car.
I appreciate what feels like fatherly care– even when it hasn’t come from Daddy or DB. I’ve received that type of support from people in my path on my solo journeys. One of those experiences came the first time I camped.
In July of 2015, I took my first trip by train. I boarded the Amtrak in Durham and rode to Penn Station in New York, stayed over the weekend with my son, Ross, then continued on to White River Junction, Vermont. There I stayed in a hostel room located in Hotel Coolidge, a historic train hotel. After a couple of nights, I rented a car and drove to the western side of Vermont to camp at Button Bay State Park on Lake Champlain. I’d stayed in a state park cabin before and hoped I could do that in Vermont. But they only had a cabin available for one night. If I wanted to stay for three as I’d planned, the second two nights would be in a lean-to.
I was a bit skeptical, never having camped in a lean-to and wondering how I’d be able to take enough gear– since I would only have my backpack and a small suitcase. Around the time I was planning my trip, I met a woman from that area and she assured me I’d be fine without a tent.
The State Park was on a beautiful point of land overlooking the lake. If you walked down the road to the west you could see the Adirondack Mountains of New York in the distance.
The first night when I stayed in the cabin, there was a family from Massachusetts at the site next to mine. They appeared to have a well-established camp site with tents like satellites around their cabin, bikes for the children, and a table for their Coleman stove and cooking supplies.
They watched from their campfire as I unloaded my backpack, suitcase, bedding, and bag of Vermont cheese and apples. Later, they came over and spoke, seeming curious that I was a woman traveling alone. I told them how I’d made my reservations too late to get the cabin but for one night. They’d been coming for a week every summer since the father was a boy, maybe around forty years. The mother asked me where I would spend the other nights. I told her I’d move to the lean-to sites.
“You gotta tent?” the man asked me.
“No. Just bedding and a floor cushion. A woman I met from near here camps and said that should be adequate,” I said, trying to sound confident.
He looked at me, like he was studying my response, then said, “Those mosquitoes will eat you up. I’ve got one you can use.”
He went to the back of his van and pulled out the tent that he said he’d had since he was nine. I thanked him and told him I’d return it the morning I left.
I managed to rig the tent inside the lean-to using rocks to prop up the poles since I couldn’t anchor them with stakes in the ground. I just did manage to crawl in and zip up the tent without everything collapsing in on me. I heard a couple of mosquitoes buzzing and got them out before I fell to sleep reading by flashlight and listening to the groups nearby talking or singing around their campfires. It felt familiar to be camping again after all the years our sons had been in Boy Scouts.
The next morning when I went to the bathhouse, the counter was dotted with what looked to be hundreds of tiny mosquitoes. I shook my head in amazement. He was right, I thought, and was thankful for the stranger in my path. He’d made my stay at Button Bay pleasant and had reminded me of how wonderful it is to receive fatherly care.
How About You?
What are the special memories you have of your father’s care?
What other people have provided that for you? How have you provided that type of support to others?
8 thoughts on “A Father’s Care”
Thank you for sharing. Your grandson is adorable.
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Thanks so much for reading and commenting. Yes, I agree with you– our baby is adorable! I’ve had a few days with him so lots of Grammy kisses. Will have Father’s Day breakfast with my son in the morning.
Best to you and your family, Connie
Connie, Another great piece. Love the smooth move from Life to Path. You have a wonderful sense of what is really right. I am impressed.
Thanks so much, John. I appreciate you reading and supporting my writing.
Best to you,
I wondered about the Math on your Fathers’ passing. I lost my father in June or 57
My father died at age 57, in 1977 when I was 22. He was born in 1920 and I was born in 1955. Connie
Beautiful writing Connie!! And your grandson is the cutest baby I’ve ever seen!!!
Thanks so much, Mary. He is the cutest baby!
Best to you,