A week from today I’ll be at my Book Launch Reading and Reception to be held in the fellowship building of my home church– Shallow Well United Church of Christ. It seemed right to go there to do the first event since that church community has been an integral part of my life. I wanted to celebrate with family and friends this memoir that I’ve been working on for so many years.
Lately, with my list of things that have to be done to prepare, I’ve thought to myself it would have been easier not to do this. I could just release my book, and spend the time and energy instead promoting it online. But for me, this accomplishment that I’ve dreamed of and worked for needs to be celebrated. There should be a ‘ceremonial’ event to mark the completion of the book, this literary finish line.
Over the last weeks, I’ve had to close in and narrow my focus. I told my husband, David to tell me if there’s anything on the news that I need to know, because I just can’t take it in right now. I’ve suspended listening to my Indie publishing podcasts until after my launch. What I don’t get right, I’ll chalk up to being a first-timer.
Last week my focus was on working through my formatting issues to successfully upload the Ebook and paperback to Amazon. Besides my own painstaking efforts to fix the problems, there have been people in my path who’ve helped me. I’ve relied on God’s grace in giving me patience and power to work through the many obstacles in completing and publishing this book.
It’s also been necessary for me to decrease my interactions with people. I’m fortunate that friends and family have been supportive of me in publishing my memoir. But lately, some people’s well-meaning questions about when the book will be ready, the ‘return on my investment,’ and comments about how busy I am– raise my anxiety level. I don’t need any of those comments that seem to get snagged in my brain and take my energy. It’s full-speed ahead because I’m in this thing too far to turn back. To help me to stay grounded, I’ve suspended social activities until after the book is released. Instead, I’ll do the essential things and spend time taking quiet walks, that are part prayer, part mediation, part releasing lingering worry. I’ll seek the company of Silence, allowing me to feel that peace in being held where all is calm.
Over this final week, I’ll focus on the last of the to-do items and will put eating healthy and getting enough sleep as top priorities. And on Friday, I’ll take the day to relax and think about those who will be attending the launch, praying that I’ll choose the portions of the book that will resonate with them.
I think this post sounds very self-absorbed– and I suppose I am. It’s like other monumental events in your life that you’ve dreamed of and when they’re finally about to happen, you don’t want to mess up. But you also want to enjoy the time, appreciating the process, the unique path of your journey. While I prepare this week, I want to remember with gratitude my unique path and the point it’s leading me to this Saturday at my home.
And next week, I’ll share with you how all this turns out, with pictures and story that will come to you at a later time, your ‘Saturday Evening Post.’
Until then, I thank you for your support!
What about You?
What is your process for focusing when you have monumental events in your life?
How do you handle anxiety as you approach that time?